Yesterday was horrible but Today was nice.

Yesterday was really rough! I had waves of fear and sadness. I had absolutely no energy whatsoever and I was very unhappy. I had aches in my leg muscles, my head felt numb and I was just so scared. I went to bed around 8:00 pm (And I am a night person!) I was just exhausted I caught myself thinking about just staying on lexapro! then I thought if I did I might avoid withdrawal but how much more damage it will do to my brain and body ... oh my poor brain!!!

So I dropped into bed wondering if I will sleep or have the hot and cold chills all night with waves of fear... I remembered the book I read  by Dr, Joseph Murphy and decided to do an exercise that learned from that book.

I waited till I was in a sleepy state and over and over I repeated to myself ( heal my brain, heal my body, I am grateful that my subconscious and God are in the process right now healing my brain and my body and I am happy)

I also visualized my laying there and a healing light so vibrant and awesome were coursing through my body, I imagined that light healing every fiber of my being.  I felt safe, comforted and even joy. I slept all night without waking up and did not wake up to a fear feeling.

Even though I slept so well I was tired for most of the day. I managed to do some much needed grocery shopping and then decided to go out because the weather was great. I went to a lake and took some photos and did some hiking. 

I don't know if this is the end of my symptoms of this taper. I also do know I will have more in future drops. What this has taught me that the drops must be smaller I went this time from 20mg to 10mg of Lexapro. I was going to go from 10mg to 5mg next time. But thank Goodness I ran into a thread about lexapro Withdrawal on drugs.com.

One thing I know the last parts of my taperings will be very unpredictable. I now know there will be windows of time where I feel ok and then windows where I will have withdrawal. This is a biggest challenge of my life.

TooDazed