Day 5 Taper at 8.1 or 0.104g

I don't think I have any physical withdrawal at this point other than some tension. But I have been waking up with an unknown "fear". I think that happened last time. I have been using my mental image of a stop sign to flash in my mind to keep it at bay. I got back right to sleep and wake up a few times each night/early morning with this.

Rest of the day I am fine, full of energy and just keep on trying to have the best day possible. Still exercising on the cross trainer 2 times a day. I am still taking my supplements especially the fish oil and vitamin B complex. I have forgotten the magnesium which I supposed to help with anxiety.

Lots of work done today and I can feel a change in myself. I feel like I am changing, I am caring more about my work even the parts that are tedious. I also am keeping away from people during withdrawal but I don't feel like I have to stay away. I guess I ma putting in more effort on everyday things and getting results or feedback. I have been getting comments on how much better I appear to be in my moods, social skills and just happiness. I do feel it. I am not going to think that tapering off Lexapro is doing this but the combo of all of it, especially the research and work to address the issues that landed me on the pill.

It is the little things, the little changes, the little goals that built a stable and strong foundation. I can feel that I have more energy. It gives me peace in my heart. Knowing I am trying my best, thinking of ways to improve .. it really does help at any level. When I began this, I could not wait for the end ... but what I learned now is feeling the journey and experiencing the personal growth. I no longer wonder if I can do this. I know I can do this.

TooDazed