Another Beautiful Day

Today was another great day! When I was on the full dose of Lexapro 40mg I had problems with :

• Sleeping to the point of insomnia and the Doctor had to prescribe ambien sleeping mediation.
• Weight Gain - and no matter what the Doctor would not admit it was the Lexapro even though I never had a weight issue ever. He kept blaming my anxiety from my stress and grief.  Be Lexapro I was on Zoloft and has no weight issues at all.
• Body Pain - Pain that just showed up and also joint pain.
• Middle of the road emotions I could not feel my emotions as I used to. I was like a robot and even though was not sad I was not happy I just existed. I feel like I missed some important moments in my life because I never got to actually feel them.
• Total loss of romantic interest.
• Loss of energy to be interested in anything. 

Other losses are relationships or deeper depths of relationships. I pulled back because I could not devote myself to friendships on the same level with other people. I just didn't feel it and now I lost friendships. Once time has passed it is gone and cannot be done over. I have to except that and look forward to new friendships.

Basically I was just existing and feeling that life for me was over and waiting for my exit from this life, I did not want to kill myself, I was just sitting around waiting for it to be over.  This is how I ended up feeling on Lexapro.

I am very excxited to get my life back, it will take time but I am in it for the haul.

TooDazed